It really just sucks not having you here to talk to or too tell you what’s happening in my life, there’s just so much that has changed that I just want to sit and tell you about in person but I can’t. The last four years of my life just haven’t been the same. I feel like I’m missing my best friend and it sucks to know I am. I miss you so much grandma <3
Finally got that hair cut I’ve been meaning to get for a good 3 months. even though it doesn’t look much shorter it is.👌👍 #myhairfeelssomuchbetter #shorterhair #haircut
Playing sims 4 with my boyfriend and this is what he creates 👌😂 Shrek The Ogre 👍 my boyfriend is shot xD #sims4 #boyfriendscreation #whatdidheevendo #shrek
My “I’m so excited I have to go out at 2:30am to buy a phone charger since mines not working and I’m still awake and I want my phone to charge” face. 👎😑
Engraved on the walls of my memory,
deep enough that I can’t chisel them away,
I wouldn’t even if I could.
Waking up next to you for the first time,
seeing you sleepy-eyed and gentle, wrapped up in my blankets. Vulnerable.
I knew right then I would be content to wake up next to you,
all scruff and morning breath,
That first kiss, all nerves and anticipation and longing,
“Are you gonna make a move or not?”
You know I’m not bold, but I wanted you recklessly,
stumbling over my shyness just so our lips could meet.
We joked that it was the perfect day.
The sun hung fat and lazy ,
smiling out of the soft blue sky.
We drove aimlessly around singing to your music,
“I get to kiss you, baby, just because I can”
You kissed my cheek on that lyric,
and not even the sun could match the brightness of my smile.
It was the perfect day and
you were everything.
Crackling fire, hazy stars,
your head in my lap and my hands in your hair.
just trying to muster up the courage to tell you I loved you.
Could you hear me in every silence, saying it over and over in my head?
My heartbeat pounded it out in morse code.
I was standing in the rain when I finally told you.
For two people who hate cliches,
how fucking cliche is that?
“I love you too,
I really do.”
The words fell out of your mouth into my hands and I held onto them as I watched you drive away, safe woven between my fingers.
At times when my sadness feels crushing,
I am comforted by the thought that there could be infinitely more realities.
Maybe, in one of those realities,
I am writing more verses for us.
we are still together,